A Black Feather, A poison pen... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- from wolf to lapdog and back again I've pretty much fallen back to much of who i was several yeasrs before i started this diary (back in the days when i was only peripherally aware of even the CONCEPT of the internet, much less actually using it. I go to work, (2 months from now will be 10 years since i took in my jackass roommates at my old house and, by extension ten years since i met Samantha and all of the weirdness and self-destruction that resulted from her and the small handful of would-be loves who followed after her) Ten years ago, i made the mistake of thinking that it was a good idea to trade the pursuit of pleasure for its own sake for something "meaningful" what a fucking joke that turned out to be. at one point i went close to seven and a half years without sex letting myself get strung along like a doofus by every two-faced neurotic little suburbanite brat who only really bothered with me as a means to make their mother twitch Since i told the one who (appropriately enough) "rhymes with paxil" to fuck off last year, my worst dry spell --even with my busted-up teeth, fluctuating weight and general odd behavior-- has been three months and all but one of them have been decidedly more outwardly attractive
3:25 p.m. - 2006-05-18 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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